so this is it, sorta
tomorrow the big dance begins...and i don't have a date?......
nope! boo hoo
am i scared...nah, worried, nah.....concerned...you bet.....
anyone that knows me, knows that i spend a lot of time overthinking things...
i plan conversations months in advance, and then analyze everything for years afterwards (you betcha...so what did kim really mean?).....
so this ironman thing, i've dreamed every scenario over and over...visualize the race?, i've visualized races....and you know what, i always finish....sometimes in those dreams, i finish late, i don't finish looking good, but i finish....the two things that always look good..the bike and the run, nope not the swim...okay i must have finished the swim in these dreams, cause i finish....but the bike...always looks good..i get bored to death riding to richters always feels slow but fine, yellow lake get's done...and then i walk and run....so am i worried....'what me worry?'....yep, but not too much, i'll worry sunday morning...but the swim, what do to about the swim?
i know i can swim 4000 meters, i know i can swim the distance, i know i love open water and i love my wetsuit (it's a speedsuit dammit.....what's not to love?)...but swimming in close quarters...getting hit, smacked, pulled, pushed under, whatever...i took a long time to get comfortable at the great white north swim this year...but i did eventually catch my breath, and i did calm down, and i did just do what i had to do, and enjoyed it...but this will be with about 1500 more swimmers...and i know, i know i'm supposed to be a strong swimmer (whatever that means)..but do i want to push that, or do i hold back and pick my spots..there's always gaps, there's always a huge group to draft behind...but i could get away with that at GWN, i'm just not sure about IMC...can i break out to open water...i think i can handle doing 3800+ meters if i have to, and my goal is to make to cut off time...(i'm hoping for 1:30...)...so we will see, what will be will be....and yep mary poppin's i'll need some sugar on that!..
again the ride will be the ride....i know that last 30K is gonna be harsh...yep it's downhill, but i've gotta keep pumpin' the salt in so i don't cramp, and gotta be ready for that run/walk...so my nutrition is gonna have to be dead on (and there'd better be porta potties!!!!)
i'm planning on turning my bike into a smorg...so i'll have variety, so if something doesn't sit right, or doesn't seem to be working, i'll have a choice...and tums, gum, whatever...gels, Gatorade, powerbars, whatever.....and they'd all better be outa my system once i'm off of the bike, hopefully around 1600 (that's 4PM to all you normal folks)....
what about the run though...i've had so many thoughts about this point, i think much like my diet on the bike, it'll depend on how i feel in the moment as to what i do...walk, run , walk the aid stations, walk the hills, run 10 and 1s, whatever...gels, broth, cola, whatever...as long as i get in before midnight...thant's all that matters and nothin' else....i kinda like the idea of starting off with a 2 minute walk though...
but you know what'll be nice...no longer thinking about nothin' but this race!!!....i wanna get back to just training, cause i love training....this thinking about IMC day in and day out, every night before i go to bed, every day after i wake up, and even in my dreams (and yep, sometimes i am naked with dark socks)....i just want to get back to havin' fun!
on the other hand, like just about everything i've done with the gang, this has been fun. to be honest, if t wasn't for the gang, i would have never run a marathon, raced a triathlon, got hooked on death race, whatever, and i'm seriously thinking IMC may become one of those fun with friends things.....you know i love this stuff. i love getting into Grande Cache every august long weekend, i love bopping into the coronation parking lot every may. the 1st sunday in july, it just feels right hitting hubbles lake....it's just living, it's just life, it just seems normal..and it's doing stuff with friends, people that all do the same things, like doing the same things, and people that don't take most this stuff so seriously that they forget to have fun.....and boy are they in for a treat when i get to penticton this year....6 dayz with this basket case, should be fun...for me.but,so i'm thinkin' once i drive into penticton tomorrow...that feeling that this is the right thing to do will kick in.....well hopefully sometime before sunday...
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