Saturday, July 30, 2011

explaining myself to myself and trying to figure out the way i am the way i am

I'm weird. Yeah, i know most every1 thinks that, but i am. But i'm beyong that, i mean, weird. Like i know also, everyone thinks this on and on, why i am, what i am, and why am i, well, me?
Late night thoughts last night about some of this swirled around my head for most of the nite and this morning. I'm 52 - way too close to 53 to say i'm 52 - and i'm kinda sort of training for yet another marathon, the victoria marathon, in, well victoria, on sunday october something or other, and i thought to myself, i guess i should actually start training. well, duh?
but there's the dilema. this isn't the 1st time i've done this, planned on doing something, a marathon, a triathlon, whatever, and never actually sticking any kind of training program or regiment. i begin with honest intentions, and then, wel, life happens.
i've done a bunch, a few marathons (kelowna, edmonton, edmonton, victoria, vancouver, victoria, victoria and new york) and have been in 2 ironman triathlons, finished the 2nd one, and got through 2/3rds of the 1st....and can honestly say the only thing that got me through, was, well me. it certainly wasn't the training.
last year's ironman canada triathlon in penticton. a little known secret, the longest bike ride i completed before that race was the 1st day at the ride to conquer cancer, a 115k ride, and i did do the tour de albert 100k ride, but that was it. my running training was no better, i may have had a couple of 10k, and maybe even a 15 k in there something, but nothing close to a marathon distance. and that sort explains my results, a great swim, a fanatastic ride, and a 26.2k walk...okay, not totally a walk, i ran exactly 3 times (out of penticton, back into penticton to the finish line, and once because i was tired of following some shmuck during my walk)...but, wow i finished that sucker! how i have no idea, but i did.
marathons have been no better. i've never beat 4 hours in a marathon. close, but never under. WTF! not sure if that's just stupid, wrong, or just what it is. i love marathoning, i love running, but ttraining towards a goal, i guess, not so much, i know i know, it's an excuse to blame other stuff, u know life, but well life does get in the way.
and now a return to victoria.
i love victoria, vancouver island, the city, the region, and the run. what an amazing place to go for a run. pretty, beautiful, fantastic, amazing. i love it. but, would love to hhave a good run this year. i'd love to beat 4 hours. but, well i have to train for that don't i? i do have a training plan that i am following, well, sort of, but well i like sleeping in on long run sundays, and no matter what, missing a long run is hard to make up for, especially when you do that every week. so i make excuses, i try to make up for lost time with a couple of back to back long-ish runs, and i do do my speed and hill work, (honestly) but, well life is about to derail all of that (excuses, i know, i know)...next week, well, it's the edmonton folk fest, how on earth do i go to the fest, and also run a 2 hour run?......and then we're on our way to vancouver for a little family vacation, so family time, not exactly run time. and then there's work, house work, and llife.
anyway, the past 2 weeks have been amazing, actually june and july have been good. the training's been okay, well better then could, should be expected, but, well it's crunch grinch time. tomorrow is supposed to be either a 3 hour jog, or a 26k run...not sure which i'm a gonna do...but i guess i'll make the effort.....and keep this all senseable...and hope for the best once yet again...

onward and upward
w

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